Hi, I really hope you get a clarinet and can play again since it’s what you love but please never say ‘it’s the only thing that I am good at’. That’s definitely not reality I’m sure you’re good at heaps of things. Just wanted to say this so hopefully you’ll think about it and change your mindset about yourself. I used to have similar thoughts about myself but have grow and realised things as I’ve got older and know that it’s not really the case. Good luck with this goal and others :)