I wanted to be celibate anyway, but the undertaking of it was sped up as a result of using neem oil to induce miscarriage. I hope no one else has to experience the same judgement by God that I did. I almost died and there wasnt any pretty angels or heavens . . ..imagine being obliterated on all levels all at the same time—emotionally, physically, intellectually, spiritually . ..I decided there was no way I could risk becoming pregnant again since I dont want to be a mother