Well, the point of all this is that you eat the Easter candy, say “Oh well, I ate some Easter candy,” and go back to your elliptical…

I KNOW you went back to your elliptical, right?? >;}~

I’ve been seeing a counselor through school, since I get a number of sessions for free and I haven’t used them yet, and he’s really helped me understand that my eating (and my clutter and my spending) are all connected to trying to fill some need in myself. This morning I was making toast, and I put in three pieces. Then I thought, “that’s silly, I probably won’t eat three” and I put one back.

I had the weirdest feeling when I did that, and I sat down to “write” it out. What I came up with is this: “If I don’t take it now, there won’t be any left.” I’m not sure about that emotion, but I think it’s an important one. My parents were very wrapped up in each other, and didn’t have a lot of affection left over for my sister and I. I think (though I’m going to have to talk this over with my counselor) that I’m eating, and cluttering, and spending money, to try and fill up the “hole” in myself that those experiences left…

Dunno if that’s any help… Maybe you could identify the times when you overeat, and come up with a strategy?

In any case, goodvibesgoodvibesgoodvibes!

:) eh