This one goes hand in hand with thinking before I speak. When I lose my rag I don’t think about what I’m saying or doing. I like to think I’m getting better with age but at times I catch myself being a right bad tempered bastard. I get such a bad feeling post the blow out as well: I feel guilty, ashamed and completely out of control. I think I’m starting to come across as a psycho so I’ll leave at that…repeat after me: I am a zen master, I am a zen master…;-)