I had a chat with my mother today, she can get jealous and protective in relationships to the point where it’s insane, she lets it get the better of her and it builds up until it bursts.

I can be jealous and protective, I opened up to her that I have irrational fears which stem from the blowouts that would happen when I was younger. I am a cynic when it comes to love and people being faithful, I know it exists but fear tends to get the better of me.
I don’t blowout or up and people, I keep it in. I am not sure what’s worse, voicing irrational fears or keeping it inside until it eats away at you.

I don’t want either. I want to fully walk away from that, and not let an irrational emotion/fear get the better of me.