Well, I ask my friends and family what they can picture me doing with my life and they also draw a blank. That seems like a really bad sign to me. A little background: I went to college, but didn’t complete my degree. I’m about 3 classes from finishing it, but I don’t want to finish. I was going to be a teacher for the Deaf/Hard of hearing population. My professors never liked me and made it really hard on me. I became really depressed from all of it. This is a big reason why I’m hesitant to go back to school at all. There’s a part of me that wants to finish school, but I can’t go back for the same thing. I just can’t. I was miserable and realized I couldn’t deal with the politics of becoming a teacher. So, teaching is out. That leaves me with… what?
I haven’t had a decent job for about 2 years now. I moved back in with my parents ‘cause I have no money. Ok I have to stop focusing on the negetives here. I’ve been trying to figure out what I want to do by eliminating all those things I know I don’t want to do. It’s a longer process than I’d like. But, right now, I feel like it’s the only/best option I have. I think if I could figure out what makes me happy, I’d be set. Unfortunately, I haven’t really been happy for a while now. What to do?
That’s right. Join a team of strangers on the internet going through the same thing! :) I honestly think this will help me. Just venting and receiving the odd comment back. I do often feel like I’m the only one lost in this world. But now I know I’m not the only one. So, there’s a small victory if nothing else. :)
UPDATE: Well, wouldn’t you know it? I ended up going back to school and completing my teaching degree. I learned a lot during my break from school and it served me very well. I got a job less than a month after graduating (in December, no less!) and things are going well. I’m glad I went back. I met AMAZING professors this time around and it was a totally different experience. :)