I’ve got such loose lips that sink ships.

I wrote to a couple of my friends about a weekend with my boyfriend and his family. Somehow, or other, he “found” it, read it and we were nearly at the point of breaking up.

It’s not like I feel disagreeable feelings towards people, but the woman in me just wants to gossip or have something to complain about. It’s a bad habit that I’m not sure where I picked up. I used to keep to myself. Now I’m starting to really screw things up because of my big mouth, haha. I know what the cause of all of it is: low self-esteem. I never thought I’d be that person who took her bad self-image out on others, but it’s becoming more and more apparent. Ick. The more I do it, though, the worse I feel about myself. The temporary relief in schaudenfreude is such a red herring.