that i am expecting, some of you don’t… so here is an update. I am doing my best to eat and be healthy though some days i just don’t want to get out of bed and i am not sure why that is. other days i make a list and do everything on it. My mom is pushin for me to get a job for atleast a while and i would like to but i feel like whats the point when i will have to quite in like 3 months. and i know i can work right up until but maybe i don’t want to. Getting up up before 9am is not something i’m good at and i often am so tired in the afternoon i take a nap.

my dad is threatening to pay off a big part of my debt and my car and i just don’t know if i want all that and i think i am going to have the baby adopted and i just don’t know about anything. mom being the type a personality she is, she wants me to make the decisions right now, make the plan and do it… right now, not tomorrow, not next week but thats not how i work i hate feeling pushed and rushed or forced to make decisions and act on them when i am still not sure if i made the right decision. ahh