I have got to stop talking to him. Every time I do—I break more of my heart. He just wants to be friends, and he is certainly not a friend…he has proven that to me.
I cannot accept his ‘promises’ right now .. what idiot in their right mind would? He broke multiple promises to me and though he is a great guy .. I can’t keep fogging my world up.
I’ve done this before - it didn’t last - I have to do better.
You deserve someone who keeps his word and speaks nothing but the truth.
I believe that what we love about others is actually a reflection or expression of something within ourselves that we love. If that’s the case when someone breaks our heart we can mend and heal, over time, realizing that the inner beauty that we loved so much in the other person, is still with us and can be expressed and shared with someone new.
I don’t know …. I always felt he was definately a better person than me .. and would bring the good parts out in me. I can’t say they were there before he was there.
I’m still at a point .. I don’t believe there will be a ‘someone new’ ... I can accept he is gone .. but I can’t accept I will find it again.
I’m sad to hear that you are so sad.
I believe that grief is largely about letting go so it sounds like you have done a good portion of that about him, i.e. you have accepted that he is gone.
No need to think about someone new now, that’s too far in the future. Just continue to grieve over the loss, get as much support from friends (or family) as you can and take the best care of yourself as you are able to manage. Maybe ask a few close friends to help support you by taking care of you a little by inviting you to dinner or help clean your house or apartment or just to hang ut with you (without trying to fix you).
You are welcome to send me a message whenever you want for support.
