I notice I’m steadily losing subscribers, and I don’t mind that too much in itself, but just wanted to explain why I haven’t updated very frequently or may not seem to have made many changes lately, in case anyone thinks I’ve lost interest in it. I haven’t. Things have been difficult. Depression is hard, and the swings are swinging lower and longer. I want to make so many changes to my life, but don’t quite know how to go about it. A grant for a creative arts placement, something I’ve been putting almost all my hopes into and something that’s been dragging on for about a year is still yet to come through, and may not come through at all. I’d like to make new friends but don’t quite know how. I am finding more and more things I can be passionate about, but no one to share those things with, because my current friends don’t share those passions, and I don’t really know how to make new ones that I may have more in common with.

Anyway, the sad stuff aside, I do have so many changes in mind. I’m planning to start a new profile on 43things, and maybe a few other places on the web, and try to make use of the internet’s potential to engage with and meet people. I’m thinking of being more open, and part of this involves putting up a photo of myself, which is partly why I’ve been looking into buying a digital camera lately. (It’s looking like it’s going to be a Canon Powershot S3. I’m quite excited about the prospect of having a new toy to play with learning more about photography.) I’m not exactly sure what I’m trying to say here, and maybe I’ve said too much already, but I just wanted people to know that even if the changes may not be showing up on the page here, I’m very much working on them, and hopefully you’ll see the results soon.