Try doing stuff that you are good at and build a sense of self esteem and confidence from than and then move on to this that frustrate you more and really work at it, don’t give up. If you set tasks and achieve them you can be proud of yourself, one for achieving them, and even if you don’t, be proud of yourself for sticking to it. I hope you do well, I have lots of friends who have trouble with this and its so hard I know. I’ve been through it myself but by saving up for three years to go overseas by myself and getting rid of relationships that were doing more harm than good, I did it.

I think it helps to accept yourself. For example, one of your goals is on the right path because it is about forgiving yourself for past mistakes (we all make them and often—how else would we grow or become wise?) and making peace with those decisions.