How I did it: After being together for over 2 years and having been in love with him for 3, it was one of the hardest things I've ever had to do. At first, I wanted him to be the one to do it because I thought it would be easier for me to accept it if he was the one who didn't want to be with me. But I knew that was wrong and I had to do this for
myself. For a few months, we'd been going through the motions of a relationship but we'd been missing our friendship.. what I've always thought was the most important part of our relationship. When we both realized that, we came to the same conclusion. We couldn't keep seeing each other hurt or upset; it was too hard to keep putting each other through that.

We still really love and care for each other, but we've realized that that's not the only factor in a relationship. We both cried, me more than him. And I asked if it would be okay to still use our prom picture as my display; he said yeah. I asked if it would be weird if we could kiss one last time and he said no. Kissing lead to sex. But it was more of a "one last time" thing and it was so special. I wouldn't have done this any other way than how it went. I love him and he loves me. & if we can start from scratch.. rebuild our friendship.. and still have obvious feelings for each other, then maybe .. just maybe in the future, we can be together again. But for now, it's better this way and I'm okay. ♥

Lessons & tips: Think for a long time about why you want to do this. If you feel a moment of weakness, remind yourself of why you feel like you want to do this. Think of the big picture: It'll be better for both of us in the end. And remember that if it's meant to be, it'll pick itself up again.

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Jul 07, 2010, 05:40AM PDT | 0 comments | 3 cheers