How I did it: Lungs Locked, Lips
Locked.

 

Strange as it
sounds, it took a promise. I have stopped publishing my blog entries for a very
long time because I simply believed no one cared what I had to say. I loved to
write so I wrote to no one at all. I even stopped emailing people so I wouldn't
get anxiety over waiting for responses. When I kicked back up my writing again
it was to explore a friendship with someone who is honestly way too cool to be
my friend so I made it clear she was not to reply to my emails. A strange thing
changed in the way I would my emails/blogs now that it had a audience. An
unresponsive audience but still an audience. I was able to pose question and
curiosities and to make promises. I didn't need a response because as long as
there was one reader it would validate what I would write. Turns out I can't
write to large group but I'm pretty decent at writing for a single person, as
long as I'm not expecting a response. It seems like I'm still talking to walls
but for some reason these email seemed to commit me to my words just strong
enough to make them a reality.


So in an email I got no response to, I said I would sing more. I did. I'm
almost thinking that because I didn't have to wait for feedback it was like an
instant yes. It was more then one of the empty promises i make to myself daily
as well, so it also had the motivation bonus. 
So I've been singing daily as i feel it, regardless of who hears with no
fear :)


WORDS


I suck at words. Normally i just make songs up because I suck at remembering
lyrics. Recently i have printing out and memorizing show tunes and musicals.
Knowing words gives me confidence. I think, and sure hope, that this is just
the start of my musicals everywhere dream :D1

Lessons & tips: find what motivate you

Resources: Not letting the bastards get me down

Sep 30, 2010, 04:31AM PDT | 0 comments