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Dont be so hard on yourself...
I have forgiven my family for what they have put me through, even though they have not acknowleged the way they treated me. I may have forgiven them but i have not forgotten and in this i have developed a way in dealing with my family. When i think about it, it hurts but i can not go on with life being like this. From the start i tried only to be pushed away but i kept on but there comes a point where you need to see what’s best for yourself. Every rejection become more difficult to handle where i had to distance myself. I needed to put myself first and make myself happy. Time and distance is a healer…
I really do hope things get better for you no matter what the outcome is.
