How I did it: - Prayed a lot
- Talked with others - discussed my problem specifically
- went to MA meetings - I don't know if they have this everywhere - they do in NY - I know AA and NA are much more prominent and focus in the same realm - but it really helped me the first couple of days trying to stay clean going religiously to these meetings.  It gave me a way to stay occupied and focused on what I felt I needed to resolve while connecting me with others having the same struggles in a forum where I could talk openly.  Though I didn't continue in the meetings after a few weeks - I was able to maintain much of what was relayed there and I certainly feel gained a better understanding of myself through it.<?xml:namespace prefix = o ns = "urn:schemas-microsoft-com:office:office" />

Lessons & tips: I don't think herb is bad. There is not one thing on this earth that is truly bad – only our reaction to these things render them either good or bad.   I actually now enjoy small-spread-a-part quantities of herb. I’m sure this may upset some people – I did quit for a few months completely and feel I have certainly regained my center.  No two people are alike.  Because I feel I can occasionally now indulge does not mean this is a truth for all.  Problem is before it had a bit of a hold on me there – and everyday smoking resulted in me being really apathetic and unproductive.  I guess my tip would be to know yourself and know when you feel you've gone too far.  Recognize the feeling you have and try to be in touch with that inner compass.  You will know when there needs to be a change and you must be willing to make it.  Pray and be thankful for what you do have - keep your light shining 

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Sep 17, 2008, 12:40AM PDT | 1 comment | 1 cheer