“A mind that sprung up out of infinite nothingness. A lonely, insane mind. All that exists is contained within this mind. It seemed to me, during this trip, that life as we know it is how the mind copes with it’s infinite existence.”

Wow! You’re only 18 years old?!!!

This is some deeply insightful stuff man! You outta be a writer. You are lightyears off the norm on the bell curve, and I mean that in a good way. If all 18 year old’s had the insight into reality that you have expressed here I can’t even imagine what kind of better world we would be in.

I’m 52 and have only dreamed of experiencing the so-called “ego death”. I have a very nasty case of obsessive compulsive disorder (OCD).. have had, since early childhood. It’s a bitch, let me tell ya. But the flip side of it is that somehow through the overactive neuro-pathways in my brain, although I’ve never been propelled out of my ego, I looong to escape it and longing to escape it might make me more sensitive to statements like the ones you wrote here, cuz man your words sing!

Someday I hope to experience a psychedelic.. haven’t yet, except pot 4 or 5 times in my life, it was veeery weird not being able to make sense of my watch. I used to be afraid, but now all these years later I think under the right supervision I would take a heroic dose of psilocybin or LSD with the hope of gaining the kind of insight that you described.

You are brave person and you have a lot going on, and I suspect that you are very honest with yourself and that is why you were able to let go of your ego.

I think you a have a future in writing if you want it, that is. At any rate take care, be careful, and keep being real my friend.

Rick

I am also 18 years old and have experienced ego death. My experience came from smoking way to many bong rips, which is strange, since marijuana is not a larger known drug to cause this. It happened around 3 months ago and I just found out what the experience was today when a friend suggested it could have been ego death. I had never heard of it before today, but after reading your story, along with a few other-that is definitely what I experienced. I did not look at it in a good way until now. I thought of it to be scary, and fought it with a lot of power. Meditating back to the experience opens my eyes up to so much and I know my life is forever changed.

I went through every feeling of my life during my experience. Everything from the pain I went through after I was attacked by a dog, to being pushed on a swing set as a child. It was a crazy experience, and thanks to your story I feel like I can appreciate it and grow so much from it.