"Finding out who I really am and owning up to myself was a painful experience I needed to do."
How I did it: My life started becoming happy
once I began getting help.
I had a great childhood, but somewhere in the teens and twenties
took a slew of nasty turns and twists where I lived unhappily for 13 years.
I began to be happy with myself once I got help from a psychologist.
I've read countless self help books before but I have always been the all or nothing type of person. If something wasn't working 100% I gave up.
I found that to be happy with yourself, you have to start healing yourself to be the person you are happy with.
That comes at a price of having to put effort in to it.
A worthy cause to have a life of happiness.
The effort being ... identifying what i've been doing, how I have been living, fessing up to the insecurities and fears of life, and to be truthful to myself in what kind of person I have been.
It's tough to admitting all the nasty inner secrets that you don't want to say because it feels so god damn shameful.
Then the shift in thought process. All those thoughts that goes through your mind that doesn't make you feel good has to stop.
And this way of thinking is something we all have been doing all our lives. It's tough. But You gotta try stopping those thoughts.
As soon as something went through my mind that I wasn't happy about, I told my inner self to STOP!#$. Sometimes it worked, sometimes it didn't. Sometimes it kept coming back.
But it was one of my tools to stopping it.
Other tools involved, me doing tension exercises, deep breaths, doing pushups, punching a punching bag, going for a quick sprint.
I had to try many many different methods to see which ones worked for me. Of course depending on situation, you can't perform some methods.
The point is though, as long as you are actively making an attempt to shift your brain from thinking these thoughts, the easier it gets to stopping it dead in its track.
That in turn deprograms your brain and changes the brain chemistry little by little.
Realistically, my doc told me it takes at least a month to see a change and 6 months to a year to break this habit of thinking.
Do this while dealing with the things that make you unhappy.
And in that void, you can start creating happiness within your life.
You feel much happier because the burden of weight that you carry around is gone.
Freeing.
Lessons & tips: Don't be so hard on yourself.
It's okay to feel damaged.
Just realizing the extent of your damage and a desire to heal is the first step in being happy with yourself
Resources: My psychologist.
lots of reading, reflecting.
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Dec 31, 2008, 07:54PM PST
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