cspaeth is doing working
holding on
i just cant find myself to let go no matter what he says or does.
we went out for 3 and half years and we attend the same college, eventhough it has three other campusus on site i see him all the time. so for him to be around it causes us to try and be friends otherwise we would have tons of wierd moments. like in my heart i feel like he still loves me, which then gives my heart hope to think it’ll work out. my brain on the other hand knows its over and is trying to move on but my heart wont let it.
how do you get your heart and your head to agree?!
My situation is pretty similar… but I won’t get into much specifics here. If I didn’t have to see her all the time it would definitely be much easier.. Part of me is sure she doesn’t give a damn about how I feel, but then she goes and act as if she still feels something, and that just maybe we could forgive one another and make things work.. and that totally makes my ‘brain work’ of coaching myself to move on to fall apart.
More than that, I feel like I’m losing a battle against my own self… why can’t I just have some god damn sense and do what is best for me… I disappoint myself, seriously..
