How I did it: I hit rock bottom. I don't necissarily recommend this method, and it was not what I was aiming for, but it happend. Over two years with the help of family putting me on lock down, and getting myself a counselor WHO WORKED FOR ME (I have had years of horrible counselors. When you find the one that works for you, it is magic!). I worked with these people to help work through issues. My counselor raised a lot of questions for me, and let me answer them. Either in his office, or on my own, after a session. It really made me look inward, and that made all the difference.

Lessons & tips: Learn, Learn, Learn! I was pouring over books about quantum physics, buddhism, and other ideas about the world and the after life. I found a few -really- good self-help books. It sounds really odd and weird, but self help books can really do so much. I learned so much about myself and what I could accomplish inward, that it made me realize what I could do outward. I found the strength to have no regrets. I didn't have a very good childhood, but I have also come to realize that all those things have made me who I am today. Without those things, I would not be the person that I love. I have no regrets, and I am, for the most part, happy that they happened to me. They all taught me huge lessons. Even if it took me 20 years to realize what they were.

Resources: Counseling, Family and my pets. Pets are the best listeners, and you know they will never tell your secrets. My counselor was perfect for me and that is the most important part. Find a counselor who works with you, for you, and also knows how to tell that the end has come. Many counselors will keep you in therapy far after you should have left, just to take your money. My counselor recognized when I had outgrown our sessions and he knew I was ready to face these things on my own. That was a great feeling.

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Mar 02, 02:15AM PST | 1 comment | 2 cheers