How I did it: I have been unlucky in love since I can remember! Isn't that the way all of us girls feel...with the exception of course of all those girls that seem to be living their fairy tale. Well, I just decided I was going to let go and just have fun. Quit wearing my heart on my sleeve. I did.

After a year relationship with a COMPLETE psycho control freak, I wasn't ready for anything AT ALL. I became friends with this guy I had nothing in common with and he kept pushing for more and more. He was a great guy...but we had nothing in common. I just knew deep down I didn't need to involve myself with someone there was no reasonable way to have a future with. In the midst of all this, I met a great guy named Mike. We became friends and have been for about 8 months now.  
I finally broke off everything with the guy who was pushing me for a relationship. I just wasn't ready and for once I knew I needed to put my foot down and say "This is not going anywhere, we do not have the same life goals, and although I enjoy being around you this just isn't what I want." It was hard but I knew I was just setting myself up for disaster. If you know there's no future in something do everyone a favor and end it!

Anyway, in the past two months, Mike and I have really hit things off. He and I have SO much in common..but enough of our own commitments in life that we don't suffocate eachother. He is in the army and is leaving soon and he'll be gone a year. Although we haven't called anything official, I think we both kind of feel like there's really no one else for us. We've agreed to just let it flow and see what happens. However, he had his orders changed so when he gets back from overseas, he'll be stationed 30 minutes from me :) Pretty big step..shows he's definitely willing to put effort into it! Which is another big indicator if someone wants something serious or not.

This past weekend he left to go to school for two months. When he got in his truck to leave he looked at me and said what I've felt the past two months "I love you." I couldn't believe it. It was exactly what I wanted to hear..but I haven't pushed for anything..he hasn't pushed me..it's just happened. He and I just click..and it's great. I'm not going to say I'm not scared...I'm not going to say I'm 100% sure I won't get hurt. But I will say this guy really gives me hope..I definitely believe in love again.

Lessons & tips: *If you know there's no future, don't waste your time or anyone else's time!
*If you feel like someone isn't really into you, they aren't! (I've heard that movie is good btw.)

Mar 09, 2009, 01:10PM PDT | 1 comment | 3 cheers