How I did it: This is tricky. I spent four years of my life working my butt off during college to prove to my family that I could make it.  Well, I survived and was/am successful.

However, once I graduated, two things happened:
1) No one really cared. I told myself, "i have to prove them wrong" but my family didn't really care if i succeeded or failed. No one was placing bets.  It didn't affect them. So while I was very pleased with myself, there was little congratulation from the people I spited.

2) Now what?  Okay, so I worked hard to show people that I could do it, and I made it.  But since then, it's felt like I have already hit my peak. No one is doubting me anymore and my motivation for life in general has waned.  Without that pressure, I see myself not working as hard now as I once did.  

I'm grateful that I was able to prove wrong certain people's opinion of me, but I don't like that their opinions mattered so much to me at one time.  I would like to be less affected by people now, while still maintaining motivation to do well with things in my life.

Apr 08, 2009, 03:15PM PDT | 0 comments | 2 cheers