How I did it: I attempted several overdoses on pills which were almost successful but i was always found and brought back from the brink of death.  One time I woke up in ICU on a ventilator.  This resulted in huge hospital bills and being thrown in a mental hospital more than once.  After the last failed attempt, I realized that God must have a plan for me and I decided to give up the attempts, but the suicidal thoughts didnt immediately go away.  It took much prayer and several years for the daily suicidal thoughts to go away.  Today my life is not perfect, I'm a young widow.  But when problems arise, I don't automatically think that death is the answer.  I have learned to cope and this was through my connection to God.

Lessons & tips: I really have to thank my family and friends.  They prayed for me diligently.  I also got on antidepressants for a while and this helped me get more stable.  I am now off the meds and I feel good, but if I need them I wouldn't hesitate to get back on them.

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Apr 08, 09:27PM PDT | 1 comment | 10 cheers