How I did it: I've been struggling this since I was six years old. I wasn't one of those people that had the compulsions side of this, I was more a purely obsessional person, worrying about the weirdest things for days or maybe even months on end. And then switch it off to something else. It probably took control of my life every single time, and I never felt like I could truely live a "normal" life or be a "normal" person with this. It was at this age when I was 16 that I simply couldn't take this anymore. I had some sort of anxiety episode and had these terrible uncontrollable thoughts (symptom of OCD) and I thought I was going crazy and thinking of all the terrible things I could be for thinking these things. I went on Zoloft for three days but I'm not much for medication, so I went off, and I'm seeing a therapist, which helps somewhat. But it was definitely the turning point, that week which was absolute hell, that made me finally seek help. I no longer wanted to feel like I was the only one struggling with this, and that no one could understand me, and I felt like if I told anyone that they would shun me. But even though I experienced those hard times, I think it has made me a stronger person. I know I still have things to overcome, but for once in my life I feel like I can overcome this whole thing, and I feel so good about my life and proud of myself.

Lessons & tips: I don't know if OCD can necessarily be cured (well thats what they tell me) but controlled and overcome at least!!!!!!!!! I'd like to think of it as a positive thing and try to focus my energy on something positive, like learning about or collecting something cool (everyone's obsessed about something, right?). Also, I think the key thing is to NOT DWELL on it. If you have what I had, don't try to rationalize it, or think that certain things mean you are this or that, KNOW who you are and that you would never do such things, and those things aren't going to happen to you. They key thing is to take control of your life and not let IT do that for you. You can control it, and you have the power!!!!!!!!! You can DO it!!!!!!!! 

Resources: "A New Earth" by Eckhart Tolle
Good, Positive music like "Three Little Birds" by Bob Marley
Telling a friend
Being positive and trying to find joy in the little things.
Getting help and feeling empowered. You aren't alone, and you can do this!!!

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