How I did it: it was very hard, but as the time past it became easier to accept. i was able to heal only after over a year of prayer, reflection, and pain. i had to go through the stages. at first i was in denial, i couldn't believe she was actually gone, that she wouldn't be returning home from the hospital this time. then i became angry. i became angry at god, and at myself, for everything i thought i could have done to be a better friend. then i went into a deep depression. i just couldn't deal with all of my feelings so i hid them, and bottled them up inside. then finally, after slowly getting out of the depression, i began to accept what had happened, and i began to understand what her life ment, and why i was given the gift of her friendship. and it was a hard process, but i believe now i have come to a sort of peace.

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Jul 02, 2009, 05:07PM PDT | 0 comments | 3 cheers