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How to learn ballet
It made me
heartbroken. 
"its like learning to walk, only you'll never do it right."
How I did it: i dont know. maybe this isn't for me. maybe it's too late in life, maybe it was stupid, going from an energetic style like irish, to something as basic and fiddly and slow as ballet.
i love ballet. i still do.
last week as a treat she taught us a higher level dance and i loved that.
but i cant get anything right. im not blaming anyone but myself, i know its my fault. but, im not enjoying it, i just wish i could go back to irish. i feel like my parents are wasting their money.
my turnout is shocking, im not flexible enough, i dont practice enough, i cant remember the dances because they arent dances, its so far just at the barm pointing my feet. i dont have the money to dance next year, i dont even have ballet shoes. but i love ballet, and i loved doing the harder work, i just cant motivate myself to work hard when it will never lead to what i want to do.
i just want to go back to irish, its killing me watching my friends continue, same as its oging to kill me watching the friend i take ballet with continue on with it, she's going on pointe and taking exams next year, and i'm going to left behind again.
its just so upsetting, and frustrating, i just want to move, and dance, and not stand still moving one leg for half an hour, then be told im doing it wrong.
