How to beat my depression
How I did it: A healthy dose of anti-depressants were my last resort but they have turned out to work very well. I had some adverse side-effects in the first few weeks that dissipated quickly and I am now coping much more easily. I still feel. The difference is, my coping mechanisms are much more healthy now. I've reached the point where I'm saying "I don't need these anymore!" But it is so soon after I started taking them that I am a little cautious about that. Relapse is a big problem for those who go off it too soon. But that is the price you pay, I suppose, for going in with a crowbar instead of a key.
Obviously I have also been proactive about my depression as well. I have tried to be as goal-oriented as possible to give myself positive mile-markers. I started going to school again. I practice mantras. I got a wonderful new job where I get to work with children. And I have tried to be mindful of my negative thoughts. It is working out well. I am very proud of myself.
Lessons & tips: I can't say my way will work for everyone as everyone is different. obviously.
However, in my experience, it is as if we become addicted to our negative emotions when we are depressed. It is much easier to cling to negative emotions than it is to make an effort to create positive ones.
Pride also gets in the way. If someone hurts you and you can do nothing in response, sometimes there is a strong urge to say "fuck you" in some passive aggressive way. Resentment builds and you can't let go. But you just have to.
I think the thing to keep in mind is that when you are overcoming depression, it is like overcoming an addiction or coming out of your safe space where you feel comfortable. Being depressed all the time without motivation is the least brave thing you can do. Deciding to stop being depressed is ABSOLUTELY HALF the battle. Once you get the ball rolling though... I think the satisfaction with yourself keeps you going.
the local mental health center
reading novels about people who have overcome depression
loving my boyfriend and myself
I also joined two online communities with a lot of very encouraging and inspiring people. ;)