How I did it: i went through a lot the past year that went by being seventeen and dealing with things that were out of my control. with all those obstacles, i really grew a lot and became more in touch with my beliefs.it only took one crazy year full of many struggles to realize the things that truly matter.

Lessons & tips:

this thanksgiving i feel like, although it may seem like i dont have a lot on the exterior surface, i have a lot to be thankful for. 

after everything i've been through this past year, i have had so many expiriences to grow from. i went from having everything so easy, to sturggling, but i wouldnt change anything. because if i didnt have the struggles, and loss of things i loved, i wouldn't have learned to appreciate what i do have, what i did have, and what i will once again have.

i feel so blessed to have realized that alone.
i am thankful for having health, of my parents, myself, my family and my friends. and to just have them in my life in general. i feel like after all that's happened i find happiness among simpler things.

i had thought about possibly, and hopefully this thanksgiing, helping those in real need. it never crossed my mind to do so to merely feel better about myself afterwards, but because i feel like i already have so much to be thankful for it would be nice to give to someone else, even if it's something as simple as my time. i would hope they'd appreaciate it.

i know there is more i wanted to say but im at a loss for words continuing this subject...

anyway today someone messaged me something sweet saying:

"happy early birthday! =D
i dont know if i ever told you
this but i think you have the BEST
taste in music, like im not a stocker or anything
but i always go on yr page and listen to yr
tunes =)
in a sense yr an inspiration lol"

so i said:
"thank you!
aw really, that is so sweet.
no worries, i didnt think stocker! haha im flattered
i've never been told i was inspirational, but i've secretly wanted to be haha
:)"

and he said:
"haha you know ive honestly never hung
out with you, but i have a great sense of character
and i definably think yr different like the things
you like, so you should consider yr self an inspiration =)
and yr welcome, but i was just being honest =D"

haha totally goes on my mental nicest things people have told me list;)

(the fllowing is from the conversation, but put toghether in pices so bear with me..)

(i mentioned how when i lived at my aunts) i wasnt miserable, but i wasnt the happiest living there. i hope so too, i already have an job interview and see about school this week.

im seeing this as like an oppertunity to expirience a different life than what i've been living and like get my things together. dont get me wrong i i miss familiar faces and places. but i'm tring not to think about those things cause i cant let it hold me back. no one else can provide me with what i want for myself like i can.



im not depressed at all, even if i get homesick. i find happiness on simpler things now i guess. i was when i first got to my aunts a year ago, because i was frustrated and i didnt appreaciate what i did have. before i ever moved out of my home i had no idea how easy i had it. after all of this i realized i have a lot to be thankful for, aside material objects. but for health, of like my parents, my self, my family, my friends, and just for even having them in my life another day. my outlook changed a lot in just one year. i wouldnt change any struggles. but ive learned to take them as an expirience to become stronger. i dont have much but im very happy for what i do. and feel like i have alot to be thankful for this thanksgiving. so i actually want to even possibly help feed those who are in real need.

it sucked cause i couldnt have anyone over my aunts house either, nor did i have really any privacy so i had to find other options. like how i would sit under a tree in my unts backyard when i wanted some space.

thats exactly how i feel aout my move, its an opportunity to better myself. like im given the chance to, so im taking it.



realizing those things makes me feel good, like happy to know the difference of what really matters. i think smaller spaces ring people closer, one of my friends has a beautiful big house, but her family seems disconnected with eachother. both of my bestfriends have smaller homes with just their moms and i guess also because they in a way only have eachother, they communicate very well, or atleast understand eachother better. i really would appreaciate my own space though after all of this though.

(my job interview) is at journeys, i might have one at lucky brand but they should let me know this week.

since im on that subject btw,
look at the horoscopee for that day, interesting...
Wednesday, November 4 
You have money coming in soon, or will be hearing from someone about a raise, bonus, or job offer. Good luck is following your career track right now, and big moves or changes could be lucky for you and those you work with. Sudden changes work in your favor. 

(talking aout helping those in need)
i didnt even think about doing it to feel like better about myself aftewards, but like since i have a lot to be thankful for, it'd be nice to help someone else.

that's impressive, like after seeing how good/put toghether some people are, it makes me want to also better myself.

Resources: my personal blogspot entry of my thoughts helped me as a reminder what i had previously realized, and just needed to remember.

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May 19, 2010, 02:41AM PDT | 0 comments