How I did it: I must confess, the depression is not completely gone, however I do feel that the weight has been lifted off my chest. I still feel lonely and sad sometimes, but when I do I just remind myself of all the good things I have to look forward to now. My future is not hopeless and lifeless as I had once thought.

Once I acknowledged that my life was sitting in my own two hands waiting to be sculpted, I took more responsibility and action to make myself happy. Although my life is intertwined with others, they will have to make their own choices and decisions in reaction to me, not the other way around. I will not be at beckon call, nor will I be the victim of circumstance. I worked too hard, too long, experienced too much to give my self to someone who doesn't appreciate me.

Lessons & tips: When the darkness is closing in, and there seems to be no way out, the final hour has chimed and the hope is gone... Look deep inside of yourself, to your heart of hearts, and you will find a flame burning quietly, waiting to be released. Let it out and you will be a wildfire.

It's hard, and it's a process, and you will fail... but that's the gift of the soul. Failure brings growth.

Resources: Counselling, to confirm and cultivate my confidence.
Friends, to hold my hand and slap me in the face - whichever was needed at the time.
Family, to be my rock to stand on.
God/Goddess/Divine Being, for being there and guiding me.. whoever You might be.

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Oct 21, 2008, 11:22AM PDT | 3 comments | 12 cheers