Be more approachable

the guy that I met on Friday told me I always look so focused at the gym. Well what am I supposed to look like, I am focused? He was like you have on your earphones and working hard so I never wanted to interupt you, which I can totally understand. The funny thing is I had never seen that dude at the gym before and he claimed to have seen me numerous times.. I really need to start paying attention I guess.

I approached someone today but…. to make a long story short we flirted, he told me he had a girl, I was once again left alone and disappointed… damn he is sooo sexy !! urgh

I went to a party on Saturday which was pretty nice. There were plenty of men that were in attendance that I had never seen before. This probably would have been a good time to try the “eye contact” and the smiling face many of you have lectured me on, but unfortunately it didn’t happen. Well for one thing I kinda sort of was with a date (so you ask what about him) thats along story I really don’t want to type again its on my blog if you want to know.

I did try to catch the celebrities eye that was close to me but he was too worried about rolling his blunt than me (don’t really care for smokers anyway) ..anywho once again I leave for night dissappointed and numberless

but… did I tell you I ended up right next to someone I have been crushing on forever.. it was too loud in there so start a conversation with him… thats my story and I’m sticking to it ..

that must mean my “no nonsense” face is on, I need to work on this !!

There I sat on a podium in the corner of the dance floor by the wall length mirror, gyrating to whatever song was blasting from the speakers, he grabbed my hand. HE being the really cute guy (there wasn’t many) with the striped shirt I noticed when he walked past me earlier. ! I hear the girl next to me (who I didn’t know) say “girl you better go he’s cute), my best friend says “he walked all the way across the club to you, go dance”! Being in the slightly tipsy mode I was in , it was just to much for me to take in, I became slightly overwhelmed and could not rise from my position. I can’t really remember his face as my arm was outstretched towards him, but ironically I can still feel his touch. So once again my “approachability” was tested and I failed.

OK as I walking to my car to get money for lunch that I had left in the ash tray minding my on business I spot one of my co-workers taking a smoke I look up to smile and say hi and here he goes “smile it aint that bad is it” I replied “it is actually” and wondered why do I keep hearing this? once again who walks with a damn smile on their face?

I notice that I purposely avoid eye contact with men. I don’t want someone to see me looking at them and think that it is an invite to start up a convo or ask for my number because then I have to lie and say I have a man. why do I do that? its such a defense mechanism. I’m scared to give someone new a chance so I stop it before it can blossom into anything real. sad but true

my face seems to naturally rest in a frown .. lol! I can just be sitting at my desk chilling and people come in and tell me to smile! I guess I don’t even realize how I look, but what can I do?

to perfect this. I really need to get out and meet people. Walking around with a smile and come hither face will get me alot of riff/raff. can we say unwanted guests! People tend to take a smile as an invitation to talk and I hate being rude. I guess I will have to find a equal mix.

or “Why you look all mad” geez
If another man tells me this I’m going to bust a vein!!! Who the hell walks around with a smile plastered on their face? Can I just mind my own business and not be up in yours.. hell I’m trying rush to get to my cay… my feet hurt dangit. But on another note maybe if my face is more open, and inviting dudes won’t be so pressed to come holla at me . I just can’t help it , I’m the strong, silent type… just call me “Mysteriosa” HAHA