forget him

Seems so selfish, doesn’t it? that a little thing like news from a friend should send me into a tail spin.

I am better this week. I think the reason that this upset me so was that it removed another possibility from my list. One of thos ‘what if you were stranded on a desert island’ kind of things.

I am striving to be happy for him. No…I will be happy for him. I was happy and content with my life prior to this news, I shall be again…hopefully soon.

got some news today. someone i thought i was over emailed me after a long, long time. i mean years. guess what? he’s gotten married. i didn’t think it would affect me this way. y’know? i thought i was so over him!!! turns out, i’m not. not quite back at square 1, but i’m still bummin. the brain has a weird way of hanging onto stuff like this. feels like i’m a teenager all over again. i’m so not. not for a while, now. i’ll get past this, it’s just gonna take some time. doesn’t help to be reminded, y’know? i am not a sunshine sally today. my skies are cloudy. hopefully, i’ll get past this soon. i so don’t have time for this. any thoughts?