stay motivated

i needa scream, so incredibly badly. there is one hell of alot of frustration here right now. the sort of frustration that is not healthy and come from the miscommunication of people who dont say how they feel. they say half sentences, tell you half truths, then reserve the right ot get shitty when things dont work out. for gods sake im not a freakin mind reader.
i cant write about this now.
i needa cool off.
im trying to stay motivated to actually stay friends with MJ. problem is, its not me who is fucking up right now. if she said something and stood by that emotion maybe i would know how to act. you cantg keep changing your mind hun. i cant keep up.