be less critical of myself

Ever since I became a mother I feel that everyone in my family has very strong opinions on how I should behave. One person feels sorry for me because I don’t get to spend much time with my son; another one thinks I should be more patient; another person thinks I should be investing in my career more seriously; and another one thinks I spend way too much time with my son, I should delegate stuff, find a nanny who sleeps here every night, and go live my life.
It is so tiring and so frustrating dealing with this, specially because because I think all the opinions above are not fair. I work part-time, I prioritize taking care of my son (because this is what I want to, it makes me happy, not because I feel obligated or anything like that), I am one of the most patient people I know and I still manage to invest in my career – I am very competent, I like what I do, and next year I’ll finally have my doctor’s degree (and did I mention I’m a straight-A student?).
I would be laughing at these people if they weren’t family, if they weren’t those people that make the difference, if these comments didn’t hurt.
Sometimes I think the only friend I have in this family is my husband.

at a university. Somehow I managed to relax and be myself and made an effort not to be too self conscious. I think it went very well. It was a fruitful day, and I had fun. :)

made a comment that was supposed to be a funny joke.

Certain jokes are just hurtful.

Instead of focusing on the good feedback I got yesterday, I keep thinking I could have done a better job…

Some strong criticism from a person didn’t affect me. I mean, it didn’t affect my self-esteem, but it affected me in the sense that I was very surprised and sorry for the person. I know I was right and I am proud of the polite but firm way I defended my point of view. If something like this had happened in the past, I would have lost sleep over it. I didn’t. YAY me!

is that I often don’t realize I’m doing it. Sometimes it takes another person to tell me I’m being too hard on myself. This goal is a real challenge.

“Maybe being oneself is always an acquired taste.”
- Patricia Hampl

tired
too worried and sad to sleep…
overthinking
overeating
nothing good on tv.

In the depths of winter, I finally found there was in me an invincible summer.

- Albert Camus

Not so bad.