start over

You know, if I go at this in a different manner, I might be able to achieve this goal. Rather than starting over, maybe I should look at the things about myself that I think are good, worthwhile, things that I’m happy about. Then I’ll take a look at what bothers me about myself. those are the things for which I will reconstruct my past. i will rewrite each negative thing (well, the ones that have negatively affected my life) and put a new spin on them. After that, I’ll try to incorporate the new history into the old good history. It wont’ be starting over, but it could be different.

Starting over from the beginning isn’t something a person can do. I really admire people who say they’d change nothing in their lives because any one change could keep them from being the person they are now. See, I’d love to not be the person I am now.

There are a lot of things I like about myself, but there are some doozies that I don’t like. I won’t get into that. It’s such a mess.

So, I would love to try my life over again knowing what I know now. See! I told you it couldn’t ever be achieved.