feel alive

but it might return to my list.

I like the world so very much.

You know those Diesel Fuel For Life commercials where a lady/man says Are you alive? They did a shitty thing to me. I wonder who made them. They’re brilliant. Like they were made for me. No, I’m not going to buy those products, because I’m smart enough to know they’re not going to make me feel any more alive.

But sometimes I still wonder if it would do something psychologic to me. (I guess it wouldn’t work if I was aware of what I was doing, though! Pity.)

Well okay, it would just make me miserable.

Damn, I’m taking this life way too seriously. It’s just life! Nothing more! It’s just all you’ve got!

Sometimes I don’t know why I have this goal, as I have this goal as well. They both aim to being happier, since I’m mostly happy when I feel alive and I feel alive when I’m happy.

Back to business.

This sounded way better when I thought about this last night before I fell asleep. I just happen to love the world. I think it’s great that I’m here and able to go through the things that take place in living creatures’ lives. It’s amazing to live.

I was having a walk in my home town today forenoon. It is a clear and cold day of autumn and I was walking towards the sea listening to Franz Schubert. I walked for hours and watched the sea and an almost frozen river, autumn was everywhere.

After all, walking back home is sad, it makes the trip a closed circle, it doesn’t feel like freedom anymore.