stop cutting myself

i mean im not cutting right now, so tht means ive stopped?
how long without cutting is not cutting anymore?

im having a really bad day, havnt cut but cheers would definetly help….
somebody plz cheer me =(

i havnt cutted 4 a while, i try to take one step each day, maybe if nobody is watching i take two or three steps a day (dangerous LOL), and sometimnes i get scared and take a few steps back. but im feeling ok, since i got back from the hospital im taking it slow “back to basics” my dr says, and maybe its boring but its safe.
wonder how much is it gonna last….

 Being a borderline feels like eternal hell. Nothing less. Pain, anger, confusion, hurt, never knowing how I’m gonna feel from one minute to the next. Hurting because I hurt those who I love. Feeling misunderstood. Analyzing everything. Nothing gives me pleasure. Once in a great while I will get “too happy” and then anxious because of that. Then I self-medicate with alcohol. Then I physically hurt myself. Then I feel guilty because of that. Shame. Wanting to die but not being able to kill myself because I’d feel too much guilt for those I’d hurt, and then feeling angry about that so I cut myself or O.D. to make all the feelings go away. Stress!”

today i got out of the hospital, i entered about 7 days ago with a panic attack, now im not prfct but stable and thats something, therapy is also helping a lot

I broke up with this perfect guy, he said he didnt love me anymore. he is such a jerk! I gave him everything I had, I was a “virgin” when i met him.. now everything is gone, Im so sad, Im cutting myself even more than before.
my doctor gave me some prozac but i think its not gonna work, my world just crumbled in mikes hands (mike was his name), I feel so lost!Im not even getting good grades, I cant concentrate,Im afraid to love again.
I dont know whats gonna happen with me. I dont wanna live but Im so scared of harming myself…

im bpd and having trouble with myself. sometimes its me against me