live a healthier lifestyle

I don’t like going. But once I start sweating it feels good. We’ve been going pretty consistently every week almost each day. Now if I could only start eating right …

It was kind of spur of the moment actually. I’m beginning to have buyers remorse. Instead of being happy and looking at this as a chance to renew my committment to living a healthier lifestyle I’m stuck on the $29.99 a month that will automatically come out of my checking account and paranoid that I’ll stop going halfway through my contract. In fact, I’m pretty sure the only thing that will shake me out of this is working out. Maybe then I’ll feel like I’m getting my money’s worth. Time to go workout.

Today I checked my blood pressure on the little machine at WalMart. Let’s just say it wasn’t good. That let me know a few things about my health and it provided a cold, hard reality check for me. I’ve been compulsively eating in an attempt to stave off depression at being unemployed and not landing my dream job straight out of college. I’m sleeping all the time too. I think it’s because my body is working so hard to keep going with all of the weight I’ve put on recently. My favorite clothes no longer fit and I no longer like what I see when I look in the mirror. Let me tell you, the day when you stop feeling sexy, no matter what your body looks like, is a sad, sad day. So I decided that losing weight and living healthier isn’t just an option anymore that I can put on the backburner and get around to later. It’s a decision that I’ve made for myself to live a happier, fuller, healthier life. For the new year I didn’t make any resolutions. I made choices. Living a healthier lifestyle is a choice. I think that’s the biggest hurdle that’s stood in my way. I never consciously said (and meant), “I’m doing this. Right now. I’m not waiting another second. It starts today.” Looking at that screen today it hit me. And I made a choice to do better by myself in 2009. Cheers to choices…

This isn’t working. All I’ve managed to do is start taking my lunch to work. And while that is healthier (considering what I eat at work) and it’s saving me a bundle of money, it isn’t helping me change my entire lifestyle. I need to work out more and eat breakfast and all those other good things. Does anyone have any advice for curing laziness? I’ve been afflicted with it my entire life.