forgive my parents

It’s so sad that they don’t understand my depression due to trauma when I was a little…I know it’s impossible to make them understand. I know I have to overcome by myself because I’m already an adult.

My older brother got back from the abroad. I’m really releaved about my parents that I’m not the only one to take care of them. Thanks brother.

Thank you for having me on this day of *years ago.
Thank you for raising me.
You both did worked so hard for my big brother while he’s been a serious sick since he was born to teenager. He is alive because you both did care him so much.
But I still cannot forget huge lonliness when I was little.

Anyway thank you & happy birthday to me.

Tommorrow might be kinda one step chance ahead to the goal.
Tommorrow is my birthday.
If they didn’t get marrige, I wasn’t born.
They nursed me, worked hard to raise me.

Hoping tommow is the day that I could appreciate my parents for my birth.

...I can do that, it’ll be easy to love myself. But how???