be true to myself

I feel like I’m hiding or covering real me. It’ just because I had to behave like my parents hoped always when I was small. I was not thinking I was just following but I had to be a piero or shiney little girl.

I’m sorry real me about that. I’m finding you now.

I knew true myself is existing, but cannot see and feel clearly yet.

Knowing my limit is so important. I’m not that young and have depression. I’m getting old but have something better than when I was younger.

It’s sometimes difficult what I am really need or want to do something. I’m loosing myself, so I’ve been taking a rest at home.

I’ve been lying to myself and why?

I know I often do too much. And then suddenly my mind gone. Recently I am following my heart to take a rest. Sometimes I feel comfortable. Sometimes I feel myself lazy and guilty. Be true to myself is harder as I thought that I need to know myself.

I’m looking for who I am and how I’m really thinking.

I’m trying to see & know what I am and what I love to do.

Knowing myself is hard. I’ve been a daughter who always tried hard to be a good girl for my parents. Always try to make them glad and smile. I’ve been trying not to notice my lonliness/

I was the daughter who had a older brother who was very sick and parents who always had a argument in front of us.
My memory of my mom is always upset or crying or telling me the bad thing about her husband or other people. My memory of my dad is always upset and doesn’t seem to like to build the famiy.

I am I. Listen to my heart.