So I’ve noticed…being around the boyfran seems to help with this. Because when I went longer than usual without a chance to see him, I began picking more, with the reasoning that well, I won’t be seeing the boy for a while anyways so what does it matter? I realize this is not a good excuse, really there are no good excuses. But I think I’ve improved since I’ve started seeing him, because like, this problem is embarassing and I’d like to feel as attractive as he keeps saying I am…
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Took my shirt off in front of the boy… He still called me beautiful. Despite the scars. I had been postponing this, was going to postpone it til the scars healed up some more, but that likely won’t be for months… Yeah, this boy is worth keeping around.
Just curious, how do the rest of you handle this around your significant others? Do you hide it from them? Are they helping you stop? etc.
I still have my ups and downs, but overall I have been doing a great job! My roommate told me that my skin is way clearer than in former times, so yay! Finally being seen without makeup is not a huge deal anymore. :)
The real problem now is my back… Unlike my face, it is too easy to just hide the evidence of picking with clothing. Usually this is easy, except with swimsuits or with fancier dresses. But I’d like to not have to worry about that, and be as comfortable exposing my back as I am with my face now.
When looking in the mirror, clear your head of all thoughts except for one: “Dayyyum! I look goooood!”
No. I will not screw this up. I’ve been doing alright with my back still, but now my face is breaking out. (So soon, hormones!? What is up with you…?) I will be nice to my face and take care of it. I will not abuse it. Nope.
Yay! I’ve been doing quite well! Once these scabs heal over I will feel comfortable enough to wear that dress! And I’ll be making that dress look goooooooooooooOOOood!
So I bought a pretty dress, and if I want to wear it out in public I’m going to have to take care of my skin. Just a few weeks of not picking and keeping my hands off should do the trick. I had been doing so well, but recently I’ve been picking more because of stress. :/
I am in public. Currently. I am not wearing any makeup. Yay.
I haven’t conquered this yet, but here are some things that have helped me along the way.
- When you feel the urge to pick, do something else. Dance. Play video games. Do crafts. Take a nap. Doing other things and keeping your hands busy will take your mind off of it.
- Imagine yourself feeling heavier when you pick, and lighter when you choose not to. Maybe it sounds silly, but I tried this today and it feels quite liberating.
- Take a step back and consciously think about what you’re doing. You are basically choosing to injure yourself, which is a pretty dumb idea.
- Stop caring what you look like. Easier said than done, I know. But you are your worst critic. Anyone who judges you on your looks alone is not worth your attention.
I will try to post more as I think of them.
I wore no makeup! No powder, not even a single product on my imperfect face. I rode the bus, went to classes, and walked around campus, and easily hundreds of people could have seen my naked un-made-up face. But I didn’t care. I don’t know most of them anyways. Furthermore, why should they even care?
It felt liberating not having a bunch of gunk on face, weighing me down, and being able to brush hair out of my face without getting makeup on my gloves.
I’m not trying to give up makeup altogether. I just don’t always want to feel like I have to wear it.
This has been one of my better weeks, and thusly I haven’t been doing too much damage to my face. Hopefully I’ll be able to keep it up.
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