show him how much I love him

“You And I”

Here we are
On earth together
It’s you and I
God has made us fall in love
It’s true
I’ve really found
Someone like you
Will it stay
The love you feel for me
Will you say
That you will be by my side
To see me through
Until my life is through
Well in my mind
We can conquer the world
In love you and I
You and I, you and I…
I’m glad
At least in my life
I’ve found someone
That may not be here forever
To see me through
But I found strength in you
Cause in my mind
You will stay here always
In love you and I
You and I, you and I
You and I, you and I
You and I
In my mind
We can conquer the world
In love you and I
You and I, you and I
You and I…

-Stevie Wonder

The Gentleman
Deliberate Gentle Love Master (DGLMm)

Steady & mature. You are The Gentleman.

For anyone looking for an even-keeled, considerate lover, you’re their man. You’re sophisticated. You know what you want both in a relationship and outside of it. You have a substantial romantic side, and you’re experienced enough sexually to handle yourself in that arena, too. Your future relationships will be long-lasting; you’re classic “marrying material,” a prize in the eyes of many.

It’s possible that behind it all, you’re a bit of a male slut. Your best friends know that in relationships you’re fundamentally sex-driven. You’re a safe, reliable guy, who does get laid. In a lot of ways, you’re like a well-worn, comfortable pair of socks. Did you ever jack off into one of those? All the time.

Your exact opposite:
The Last Man on Earth

Random Brutal Sex Dreamer
Your ideal mate is NOT a nut-job. He is giving and loving, like you, but also experienced. Avoid the The False Messiah at all fucking costs.


CONSIDER: The Gentleman, someone just like you.

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confusion
that I do not know
yet understand
light has no shadow
smoldering eyes
a thousand times
in jealousy stare
with confusion yet I go
an equal
opportunity distroyer
what rung hast thou tread upon
to increase the flames of madness so
and from behind the ashen cloak
with a whince and a wink
death to the phoenix once more

Well what can I say? Justin’s been quiet and pissy the past couple of days. I know he feels closed in and isolated here on the mountain as well as being burdened by finances. When I try to get him to talk to me about it he either shuts me out or becomes hypersynsitive and reactionary then bites my head off. So I try to pick my words very carefully. Perhaps I am at fault for not choosing my words carefully enough but I do try, though the silent pauses, I think, offends his impatience. I love him and I am sorry for the confusion.

I think he is destracted by so many things (his own thaughts/daily life) that he cannot focus on any specific goal. Life for him, he says has become “tedious”. A drab and prosaic existance whereby Staus Quo stands sentinel is by no means a life befitting artists and intellectuals. In the past two days he’s become synical, sceptical, immpatient, and pessimistic. What great task has a pessimist ever accomplished? I try not to let it bother me too much. His words and tone give me a sense that he is become, for the moment at least, I dare not say ungrateful or apathetic but rather “un-empathic” (though I know its not a word).

What I mean to say is, and I may be wrong, that I do not get a strong feeling that he truely empathises with my perspective.

He wants to move to a place where there are more people our age that we could be friends with. He craves human interaction. We all are social animals. He wants to go to school so he can become a teachers of women’s studies. He wants to be able to take care of his financial obligations so that they are not constantly looming over-head.

These are all admirable goals which I applaud and wish to assist however best I might. I think that he feels that I do not desire these things too. I do. I love him! I do want the best for him. For us. It’s not that I do not want to leave this place, its more for me a matter of plotting a course and setting sail. I understand his predicament and desire to do everything in my power to alleviate his worries. And I am doing that now. I am diligently formulating a plan of action. Sometimes it takes a little time. Not everything can be put right overnight, however, I am optomistic and hopefull for the future. If I put my mind to something I can get it done. I always have. First I need to get all my ducks in a row. I need focus. I need to know the “What” and “When” and “How” because that makes me feel safe. That way I can better concentrate on all of the things which require attendence.

So much do I love him that I did his taxes.
I just now finished. I did an e-filing with
TaxACT.com
This site does make things a little easier than filling long hand. Though it was still a snails pace bore for me to finish filing mine because I had to itemize. Soon some states will charge a penalty fee for not filing online. It really is the way to go. Now I just have to wait for the returns to be direct deposited into the bank.

I cannot write like you
how could I possibly say something
which has not already been said by someone
somewhere through out the history of the world

Forever is a really long time
I may stumble and fall
or loose my balance
I will make it
I will
I will not forget in the heat of the moment
this precious gift we give ourselves
I will not betray my chief purpose
I will not blaspheme our name
i will not render our walls cold and heartless
I will not

I will make it with you beside me
I will
We will

Forever is not such a long time
It’s the day I touch you with my jealous skin
and dynamite eyes
It’s the unique geometry of the the shadows in your hands
Pulling towards one in the night
It’s the chanticleer whisper under goosedown pre-dawn

It is the FAITH and the MYSTIC

I am not myself without you