Every once in a while I feel bursts of love flowing through me.. it is so amazing that feeling. I want to learn how to see and be with that feeling all the time. Though when things get bad.. or i get stuck or hooked on something.. which may not even be mine.. things get so ugly and then my mind turns and turns in that ugliness not allowing myself to see the truth of the matter. So caught up in that emotion than seeing peace and love. What i want to achieve is to be able to feel that 24/7 so that nothing can really touch me or affect me. To be the observer all the time. To feel without allowing the mind to tarnish my good thoughts with negativity.
For example, the other day my mom yelled at me out of nowhere.. though i tried to keep my cool.. eventually i lashed out back.. i wish i could just dust it off and not even worry or be affected by that kind of stuff.. or like at work.. when things get stressful.. to be in peace.. just be wihtout judgement and getting all caught up in the zoo. Be calm and then allow others to be affected by that calmness in a positive way.. to see outside the limitations we place on ourselves with our mind.
