graduate college

Blah blah blah

I went to my advisor a couple weeks ago and got everything going and enrolled for next sememster. If I take 12 hours every sememster, excluding summers, I’ll be done in just under 3 years. So it looks like I’ll actually have to start taking 15 hours and some summer classes.

And bloody Foreign Language class. Who wants to take French for me?

This week has been a tough week for classes. I can’t seem to go or have the motivation to leave my house….maybe the cold? But i’ve been in college for 3 years plus one sememster, and i just can’t see the end. I have something like 4-5 semesters left at 12 credit hours a semester.

The next two semesters are going to be 10 credits because I have to take my foreign languages so i’m not going to take a full load. Which means I have to take summer course…curses.

But every time i think about quiting or start to cry i get this image of me walking over the stage and moving that tassel and seeing my parents really proud of me. Not just that proud look parents put on their face when you do something random. Its that oh gosh it took for ever, but she really worked hard and has proven herself not just to us (parents) but to the academic world.

damn that image…why can’t i just quit…damn that sparkle in my parents eyes. Oh well off to write a history paper.

there are days that i really just want to run far far away. But i feel that i have something here that keeps me in it. And its not the classes or the promise of a degree. I think i might end up having a mental breakdown or a ‘mid’life crisis.

Maybe i’ll run away to Alaska and work for my friend in her cafe….maybe

lost, confused, and i need a drink – or a whole bottle of Jack.

My expected graduation date is May 2007. Oh god that seems so close. i hoping May of 2008…thats the latest.