learn to let go

I’mnot even going to pussyfoot. I am having a very hard time with letting go all around something always trigger the negativity.

Tomorrow is my first day with a counselor. I am not excited about this. I am really scared that she won’t be able to help me. All I want is to get past my issues. I just want to be able to really fall in love without being scared. I want to be able to sleep witout nightmares. I dont want to be on the defense with men. I hope she can help me.

Little by little I am doing this ut something always triggers me and makes me worry about what I am doing wrong. This one is so hard. I can’t move on without completely doing it.

This oneis tough because I keep reverting tomy okd ways.

This is a lot harder than I thought. I really think that this might be the hardest thing I have ever done.

I was abused by a family friend. Every sense I was abused I have felt I was ugly. He made me feel like I was ugly. For years I went on and had even blocked it out enough to live a normal life. But the problem is that every guy that I meet and doesn’t like me or I do something I think is wrong,I am really hard on myself because I feel like I am being abused all over again. I feel like someone is abusing me because they think I am ugly. And I get really defensive so we can’t even be friends. I just had to vent because it really hurts. I am starting counseling on Thursday I will see how it goes. I will definitely think positively. I have definitely got to make this goal happen.