stop crying

I’m so sick of this. Everything makes me cry. I’m sitting at work and this lady asks me hey amber, are you ok? I said yes i’m fine…of course, but after she left I just broke down. God I’m in public! This morning was so hard, I’m so tired of hurting. I want to just go numb. My boyfriend yelled at me all morning about how annoying I was and what a bitch I was. I’d been doing so good the last week. I just shut off, every stupid insulting thing he would unfold i’d just go off in my head to some place else. But today he broke me, I’m not even sure why I’m still with such a jerk, it sucks all I want is him and all he does is make me cry.