stop worrying

I was so worried about calling into work wondering what they would say about number one me not calling in at 8am as i said i would yesterday and secondly not being able to go in today. I wasn’t roted on to work, they just asked me if i could.

I just called a second ago after much deliberation that it would be better to get it over with than leave it until later. I feel so relieved now. The worry is gone. It’s not concerning me anymore.

I could have continued with this feeling for the rest of the day, but fortunately i’ve taken action, and the stress has gone. I went through a minute of pain, which will bring me a day of pleasure, despite feeling sick. I feel half of it was with worry anyway.

The best way to stop worrying is not to think. Just take action. Don’t think about what needs to be done, just start doing things. Don’t plan to many things. Keep one list in one place of everything that you need to do. Get outside some fresh air and do something you love. Since being back on the yard, my worrying has reduced. Hard work works wonders for stress so go do some volunteer work. I mucked out 4.5 stables today and did alot of yard work and 2 lunge lessons on horses and i feel exahausted, but it’s certainly a much nicer feeling than stress or worry! Highly recommended.

I can’t believe i’m worrying so much. I’m worried about whether i know enough to pass my exam. I’m worried about how Shelly will feel after i had a week off ill before the holidays and i just have a general anxiety about getting thrown off the course. It’s highly unlikely, but in my mind i can’t help worrying about it.

I’m going to stop this unproductive thinking right now. It serves noone, it’s not even worry that i can use to prepare. I just need to stop worrying and accept whatever happens. If worse comes to worst i lose my placement, get a full time job, earn some money and pay for the course in the evenings.

So even if the worst did happen it wouldn’t be bad for me, it might feel humiliating that i failed in other people’s eyes, but i could just see it as a setback on achieving my goal. I have until December to complete this goal of passing my BHS one, even if i do fail in June or am thrown off the course for any reason. So that should in theory settle my mind. It does slightly. Now i’m going to do some NLP to think good things every time i think about college. It’s time consuming but worth it.

I’m going to go watch monty python meaning of life and relax!

This is a very negative command to the brain, first of all i’m asking my brain to stop doing something. Secondly i’m asking my brain to focus on worrying inadvertantly. I mean if i say to you don’t focus on the coulour blue. What do you immediately focus on? BLUE! So it goes to say that the only way to stop worrying is make a more pro-active goal, like * Think positively* , Focus on what you love and want , not what you don’t want, or you will get just that!

Therefore i end this quest to achieve a worry free life. Problems are part of life, i’m just going to work at approaching them in a different way, without worrying. How will i have time to worry when i’m doing the positive thinks in my life that will make me grow as a person!

I’m going to focus on being grateful for all my feelings even the bad ones, as they are here to serve me in some way, to guide me , to point me in the right direction. I gurantee if you change your focus away from worry and towards something inspirational! Something you love, this emotion won’t be a part of you life anymore!

Just let things happen as they should. Do things i enjoy! Focus on the positive things, and i will draw hapinness into my life. Like attracts like!

HAHAHa …I need to lighten up abit stop taking life soo soo seriously!

Money will come when it’s destined to come, and when i take action to get some.

Until then, i’ll have to practice changing my state, by dancing or doing yoga or learning new things.

I already feel worried. There is nothing i can do to change this apart from take my focus away from what’s bothering me. However i know that what is bothering me is what i need to focus on! Catch 22 ha!