start drawing again

So I have discovered that, as obvious as this is, when I read more I draw more. Also, I ended up taking a college art class for the credit. That has helped only because I dislike most of the assignments in the class, so I end up thinking a lot about what I would rather be doing, lol. I also went out and bought a really great reference book on facial expressions. My newest sketchbook is getting filled with more (actually completed) drawings. I’m so excited! ^_

I have had artist block that has grown increasingly worse over the past 4 years. I used to draw a few complete pictures every day, and I enjoyed it. Now if I draw, its every few months and nothing is ever complete. I’m terrified because the more time that goes by, the harder it will be. I don’t want to see that part of myself lost forever. I have tried everything, forcing it, not forcing anything, surrounding myself with that which would inspire me, etc. I have so many resources within my grasp as well, that I feel are just being wasted. I just don’t know what to do anymore, I’m at a loss. I can’t seem to focus, or have any love for anything that I create. I feel this weight, this pressure that will not subside. There has to be a way out of this. There is a part of me that just knows, I can be brilliant. I just have to find my way.