have 4 children

I have two children, a boy and a girl. I’ve always wanted a big family. My mother had 5 and so did my grandmother. I actually grew up as an only child, though I had a huge family. Divorce you know. I want to have a huge family, I want my children to be close, inseperable. I feel like I have no connection with my siblings from many years apart, I’m so lonely without them! However, outsiders tend to think I should be done with two. Everyone wants a boy and a girl (in that order) and believe my family should be complete. My husband included. Maybe this isn’t a possible goal, but I really want a big, happy, healthy family!