lose weight until I reach my goal weight and look as sexy as I know I am

I have been consistently at or below this weight for several weeks now but I’m still not going to call this complete as the loss can surely be attributed to my poor eating habits, stress and nerves. Plus, I’m getting ready to head back to the land of milk and honey…and cheese and pizza and tacos and rich pasta dishes with people who like to drink a cocktail with me! So there could be some weight changes coming up in the next month or two!

I can’t call THIS goal done yet. Even though I probably ate more healthy the last half of last week than I have for weeks before that, yesterday was a free-for-all at our cookout/picnic. It was way worth it but it shows on the scale…

was 125…and that’s what the scale said this morning. Now, my scale is kind of jakey, but it’s what I’ve been weighing myself on for a year now so any postings on this goal since last spring came from that scale…
Funny, though, I feel like I would still like to lose more… We’ll see if I can stay around this goal weight for a little while first!

I gained 2 pounds. Two little pounds but they put me back over 130 and I didn’t like that. I realized I was treating myself too much with 6 or 8 little pieces of candy after lunch instead of just one and too many dry, bland cookies and cakes at stupid Starbucks. Those are so not worth it! Also, more soda than I used to drink. It was becoming regular again instead of a treat as it should be.

So anyway, the 2 pounds are gone again but it made me see how easy it would be to really hit this goal, finally. If I can go back down those 2 pounds, can’t I drop the final 4 just as easily?

We bought a scale on Guam b/c I’d forgotten to pack the one at home and I weighed 129. I thought, that’s just the scale, it must be faulty. But Todd weighed himself and said it was the same weight he’d always been and the kids weighed the same. So I actually weigh 129. I didn’t want to post about it forever b/c I couldn’t make myself believe it…
Still, I stand there and push up on the edge of the sink, imagining what 125 or 120 would feel like, and to see if the scale settles on something lower than 129.

I am attributing this drop to the lack of cheese in Japan. At home, I would pour my glass of wine and cut up some real cheddar cheese or brie and put out crackers or peanuts to munch on while I cooked. Well, there’s no “real” cheese in Japan, just different versions of what all tastes like Velveeta to me. So, no cheese. The real test will be when I go home in a week and the atmosphere will be party-at-the-pool all the time, eating and drinking. Not to mention my mom’s cooking and the planned frequent visits to the local Mexican restaurant. What will happen to the weight then?

Looking back over old entries on this goal, my original goal weight was 125. So, I am close…Yay!

It’s not the weight that I’m struggling with so much right now as much as the exercise. I’d been doing this routine of some sort of cardio or weight training for about 20 minutes and then some yoga. I usually do this 4 or 5 times a week. The problem is I’m achingly sore all the time. Even getting in bed is not relaxing. Everything hurts from my neck and shoulders down to my legs and I can’t sleep. I’m afraid I’m doing something wrong. Up until this week, I’d been sure it was the weather changing or even still the Hep shots I got 2 weeks ago. Now, I’m not so sure. Any ideas?

This is not going so well. I haven’t really gained much but a pound or two but I really don’t eat well. I’m blaming the Easter candy that is still quite abundant around here. For lunch today I had a piece of cold leftover pizza, an apple and 12 pounds of Easter candy. Get it out of my house! I tell myself that it doesn’t count because I so rarely eat chocolate but when a person pigs out like that, it sure as heck is gonna count. I exercise at least 4 days a week but I’ve hit a plateau…and it’s because I haven’t been eating right!

_{I also read an article the other day about a girl who stopped drinking and lost like 15 pounds within a few weeks. But I’m not really sure I want to get that drastic yet…}

yesterday was down 2 more pounds! Paris must agree with me!

The scale yesterday said 134.5! Plus, I just got back from shopping. I hauled an armload of jeans and pants into the fitting room and none of them fit! They were too big! So I had to go back out and grab up a bunch in the next smaller size!
_{‘Course now I’m worried that it was a fluke and I have a bagful of size 6 pants that won’t fit next week…}

I weighed this morning after breakfast but after working out, and I was down a pound! You know, I’d been hovering at this weight for what seemed like forever! since before Christmas…and it was always closer to the upper limit, like if you rounded up, then I actually weighed what I started at…But now, that’s all changed. On a pound!
I’m probably jinxing it right now.