List my fears

Time has passed and I realize I have many fears, one of the is to go back to my pass, what I mean is to see everybody I used to know, my husbands family, my husband, my friends. I left Illinois a long time ago I left my husband my life with him. But I promised his grandma that I will go so she can see our daugther Katie, thats the worse fear ever for me. Just knowing he has somebody else already and I have all this feeling for him, and knowing he doesnt want to talk to me im scared of this fear.
I fear to fall in love again
I fear my thoughts, because they can trick me
I fear my self sometimes, because I can be selfish
I fear the dark and to be alone
I fear my future ex-husband
I fear to get out of my shell, but how will I know this world?
I fear file for my divorce
I fear not having anything to hold on to
I fear lies
I fear to have a lonely life
I fear that what my ex told me about me is true
I fear my future, thats something I cant look forward to