3 years later. It took this long, probably will take even a little longer.
Anais Pinn, has written 5 entries about this goal
that could be a year or two, realistically.
I’d say I’m doing pretty well, considering….
I’m going to try and practice transforming the stuff that comes up during this process into useful things. Not necessarily going to catalog that all here. So for example if a negative memory comes up, I’ll acknowledge it, but try to consider what positive thing could replace it.
I’m one who’s good in a crisis, and consequently seem to attract more than my own fair measure of them. I’ve even observed individuals manufacturing crises just to keep a hold on my attention….
That “distraction factor”, combined with my own slow, introspective ways, has led to a backlog. Now that I’m able hear my own thoughts again, I’ve been processing so much … I wrote this goal to remind myself that this could take awhile, especially since at first I was alternating between shock, anger and grief.
Lately there have been some rapid periods where there’s more than can be captured, noted or described. It’s an upwelling that manifests in song, gesture, in new ways of connecting with others, in all sorts of ways. So I guess there’s been a lot of healing already.